birthday and life

selamat lebaraann..walau gue sebel bgt dengan lebaran tahun ini

it's too complicated a lot of missunderstood, upset feeling but at the end i have to let it go at the 7th day of syawal

forgive and forget...

and ...tomorrow will be my 25 years birthday..sigh..

i'm twenty five years old girl and my half age crisis has begun..

i feel so silly with this age..it doesn't mean that i'm not gratefull with this step

it just make me on roller coaster feeling when you are only need 5 steps to reach 30

i should get married as soon as possible

i believe Hendi had already prepared himself to go one step ahead in this marriage situation

but..

i do not believe myself could handle this crazy situation

i should get "peace with myself" feeling when i decide to marry

a lot of things could lead my life into horrible situation

1. mother-in-law

2. child

3. desire to work

4. housewife obligation

5. parent

6. etc

when i get ready with this dizzy thing?!

some how i feel like tons of iron on my shoulder

Allah..

please raise me up..

give me your light and understanding about this part of life..
pleaseeee..